Sometimes I just want it to be easy. You know what I mean? I want to grow, broaden my horizons, access new potential, expand my work and creativity, and experience new adventures. That said, I’m not always willing to feel the feelings that stretching, building new skills, being in the unknown, or being a beginner may require.
Seeing that my personality was not fixed but rather fluid, seeing that my past did not determine my future and that there was more to me than my previously demonstrated strengths, weaknesses, and issues has unlocked many new experiences in my work and life.
It’s time for a change, or change is already underway, but we don’t have a clear view of the future. What do we do? Over the last year, I have found a richer exploration available when I get curious about “What is the deeper invitation here?” or “What wants to evolve?” rather than “How do I figure it out?”
What do perfectionism, expectations, and pressure all have in common? They are made of thought. They are made of beliefs, ideas, and cultural conditioning, and when we don’t see that we are under the influence of our thoughts and ideas, it comes back on us. We are a victim of it.
How do we quiet the noise of other people’s opinions, nosiness, and judgments? How do we stay connected to the inspiration and clarity of our path? People have opinions about things. They have opinions about you. They have opinions about what you’re doing and, at times, may question your motives or decisions or think they know what would be better for you.
I’m moving. This has been a while in the making. Over the last year, I’ve wondered if it might be time for a move. At one point, it felt urgent, “Yes, it’s time. Go now.” When I felt restless and discontented, a move looked like the remedy. My mind would start rushing, figuring out where I would live and all the details that would need to be handled. I would think about packing up my house, which would feel overwhelming. Noticing these feelings was my guide. They were the wake-up call that I was ahead of myself.